Music, the way to my heart

Ok so those of you who know me knows that music is the way to my soul. I love music, all kinds of music but mostly music that has words that reaches down deep and makes me think. After my mom died, I found a gift card to the Christian book store His Word that my mom bought for me oooh 2 years before. I hadn't used it so I went in to see if it was still good. I saw this necklace that said faith, hope and love on it. It was something my mom would have bought me so I decided to buy it. I also ran across this cd from Josh Wilson. I had heard one of his songs on the radio before and it was only $5.00 so I decided to buy it. I loved it! That sunday I went to church with my dad and saw that Josh Wilson and Matthew West was coming to Sparks Christian Fellowship (the church I was at) and told my dad about it. He couldn't believe that Josh Wilson was going to be there since he heard my CD and also really liked him. He immediately bought us tickets and meet and greets. We met Matthew West before the concert and I was not familiar with his music at all but I thought I would meet him anyway. I bought 2 of his CD's there and 1 of Josh Wilsons. The concert was seriously awesome! Their music says so much and is perfect for every difficult thing that has seemed to happen in my life. Anyway, where I'm going with this is I was playing around on the computer and I found some of Matthew West's music and turned it on. All the memories of my mom passing away flew back and hit me like a ton of bricks. But not in a super sad way, in a way that I was at such a low point back then, I had no clue as to how I would ever be able to move forward. Then I looked at today and realized that I had... somehow. I now have 2 beautiful girls. That right there is something so amazing that has made my life wonderful. I was at such a low point I hated when people would say it will all be ok with time because I honestly thought they had no clue how I felt. They might have not experienced the exact same thing as me but everyone has gone through their own low point but we all move on and live, somehow. I thought I would post some lyrics to a song by Matthew West. This song was one that reminded me so much of my mom. I'm not sure if she ever got to hear it but if she did it would have been her anthem lol. She was always trying to help other people over herself, and this song is one that inspires me to do things for others. If I can't physically do something, I can at least be kind.
Here's the Lyrics to the song, My Own Little World:

In my own little world it hardly ever rains
I've never gone hungry or always felt safe
I got some money in my pocket shoes on my feet
In my own little world
Population me
I try to stay awake through the Sunday morning church
I throw a twenty in the plate but I never give 'til it hurts
and I turn off the news when I don't like what I see
it's easy to do when it's
population me
What if there's a bigger picture
what if I'm missing out
What if there's a greater purpose
I could be living right now
outside my own little world
Stopped at the red light, looked out my window

Outside the car, saw a sign, said "Help this homeless widow"
Just above this sign was the face of a human
I thought to myself, "God, what have I been doing?"
So I rolled down my window and I looked her in the eye
Oh how many times have I just passed her by
I gave her some money then I drove on through
in my own little world there's
Population two
What if there's a bigger picture
what if I'm missing out
What if there's a greater purpose
I could be living right now
outside my own little world
Start breaking my heart for what breaks Yours
give me open hands and open doors
put Your light in my eyes and let me see
that my own little world is not about me

The last line says it all... life isn't about me. People say they don't know how I am dealing with my surgery and it's a simple answer, I'm doing it for my girls. So as I end this and go to bed, I hope someone reads this and even though you might have had a seriously crappy day, there might be someone out there who needs you and had a devastating day. So try to think of others or send a nice little message to someone you love, because life without love really isn't worth it, thats how I feel anyway. :)

(Here is the link to the song that goes with the lyrics so you can hear it.. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=M9Yasgzjc0w)