Today I woke up in a lot of pain. I have been trying to get off of my pain meds and just take ibuprofen here and there. I have been setting an alarm at night to wake myself up and take some pain medication. Last night I didn't. I woke up this morning unable to move. AJ saw my face and immediately pulled me into a sitting position and gave me my prescription paid meds. I couldn't believe it's been a week and I feel like I am getting worse. Its not that I am actually getting worse, its that I'm on less pain medication so I'm feeling more. Unlike most surgeries, I won't start feeling better as time goes on. When people go through surgery, a week passes, 2 weeks pass and you slowly feel better. I will be able to do more but for months I will have pain. Thats what happens when you opt for reconstruction. During surgery Dr. Janiga (plastics) put in expanders under my breast muscles. He put in saline solution to start the expansion process. He put in more then he usually does at this step for a couple reasons, he felt that I could handle it and he wanted to get a jump start on my reconstruction process. This is used to stretch the muscle and skin so they can put the implants in (in a few months). Most of the skin over the breast muscle is numb but around it is so sensitive to the touch. Shirts hurt so bad against my skin. It feels like I have an extremely bad burn. My chest feels so tight. It feels like a super tight corset is around my chest while an elephant is sitting on it. I will go in and get my first fill (well 2nd but first after surgery) in a week or so and it will feel even tighter. This process is going to go on for a couple months and I am so unsure how I will handle constant pain. I am blessed to have a very high pain threshold, Rylie's 9 lb natural birth still holds the record for the worst pain I've ever been in (ha!), but this is constant for a very long period of time so it can be unnerving. I will be able to do it and every time I have severe pain I close my eyes, breath and picture my girl's faces (its amazing how they can always make me smile). If you have had the pleasure of being around them you know why. :) My drains currently make the pain a lot worse so I think I need to go back on my prescription meds until I hopefully get them out on Wednesday. It's hard to sit back and watch other people run my house and care for my kids. Its been pretty hard on AJ, he has been trying to juggle the girls, the house, meals and school (he is off work this week) and yesterday I thought I was going to run away from home but today went a lot more smooth. :)
Next step.. get drains removed! Lets hope it happens Wednesday!!
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